I am Blue and Green.

Had a weird dream last night. A dream I am not willing to share to anyone anytime soon. So weird and disturbing that it woke me up. I jolted right up from deep sleep and thought about what I just dreamt of. The dream is weird enough and to be actually dreaming about it is even weirder. The only words that came out of my mouth were, "Oh my god. I am so dead."

The only reason I am feeling this way is because of my crushed pride. Or was it really that? Quoting Irina when I am making excuses, "You are just rationalizing Levs." And this time, I am guilty of just rationalizing for feeling this way. And really, I am not too excited to find out the answer. I may not want to know anytime soon.

I am so dead.

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I don't know if you are reading my posts (again) but I don't care.

You seem to be joking but you were unusually persistent this time. I am waiting for you to take it back and call it off as a joke. But you didn't. I was actually putting you off but you didn't take it back. And I thought, if someone would ask me or propose to me that I would say yes anytime. But I didn't. I couldn't. I don't know if I am scared or if I am waiting for something or someone, but I just can't do it. Forever is a strong word. Or even just the half of it. I can't give you that. Maybe if you did that a year ago, I would have said yes.

Were you joking around? Were you testing me? I am not sure.

For everything, thank you.

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CE Week's over! wuhoo!

Kat and the whole team! We're done. :)

Congrats to us! Thank you for everything guys! Let's go TBA! :D

Thanks to those who helped CE Week team. As in.

The FP Team especially to Aileen, Aji, Alpha, Zel, Hazel (Super thanks!), and Mark Manalastas. Thank you guys! Don't worry, we'll help you, promise!:)

To Jac Mago for hosting.

I know there are more, but I can't think straight right now. You know who you are. Thanks! :)

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Ate Rai! I am free! Let's Go! :D