Yeah, got a full one week left although my sem doesn't end there but then, I have to go back to Cavite. Maybe, there would just be a day on the week after next that I have to be in BA. Sad, sad, sad.
What's sad about an Octoberian is that you are not prepared when the time comes that you have to graduate and leave. You would be working your ass off to finish everything and before you know it, it is time. And that's basically what I am going through. And it took me by surprise.
The moment we're done with our feasib presentation, we were jumping for joy because it means graduation but the moment we stopped hopping like rabbits, there is this sadness. Yes, it also means I have to say goodbye. With only two weeks left after the feasib mode period, it made me panic. Is two weeks enough? Unlike the March graduates, they have a little more than a month to prepare, to reminisce, to enjoy what is left of their college days. The academic calendar is adjusted for this purpose but we, Octoberians, don't have the privilege.
And now, I am near my last week. Mixed emotions and all emotions can make one cry. It definitely can make me cry. Unlike high school graduation, there is less chance of seeing your friends after. For one, I don't leave in Quezon City or Manila even. Everything is all too sad. Though we might meet some time in the future, but getting used to the fact that you can't see each other as often as you would want to is still a difficult phase. And it is also very different from being left behind when your friends graduate. When at least one stays in school, you are sure to find them in school, it is easy to contact each other. But when everyone has already graduated and everyone's on the move, how can one meet?
I know Gil and Aldrin are very much looking forward to seeing me graduate and leave because then they will be free from my scolding. And I guess, I have been too "Ate" for them, but then I just wish they would have at least learned something from me and did not pass it all off as jokes.
Every one is saying studying is a lot better than working. Yes, I agree. But then, I can't be a student forever, can I? I have to move on to another phase.
College went by so fast. There were so many things I wish I did. I wish I were a better student. I wish I took some subjects seriously. I wish I had been a little bit wiser in making my decisions. But then, there are also some things I would not have done any other way: Having the friends that I have now, joining CE, shifting to BA, meeting the people I came to meet and making the most out of my college life. If I wasn't able to become a great student academically, I know better that I am a great student experience-wise. But still, I wish it is enough to be a good start for me after college.
Hell, I will miss college. I will miss UP. I will miss BA. I will miss CE.
P.S.
It is a good thing there is no tribute to the graduating students this sem because for sure, I will cry.
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