Affirmations and Questions

I am a person who lives one day at a time. I take pride in being spontaneous. They say I can't bore anyone, that's true but maybe I irritate them. Haha. I hate routines and perfect planning but that is no excuse to not make something work. It has to work despite imperfections.

I am not a goody-too-shoes type but I am not promiscuous either. I know what righteousness means but I don't exactly stick with it all the time. I know my limits and sometimes, I jump over them or break them just so I can set another one.

I lead a simple and uncomplicated life but I AM full of complexities.

I listen when others give me advices but I seldom take them. I am not called a brat for nothing. I am a sweet little brat, one once told me (And you know who you are, if you happen to read this.) I am a brat because I know what I want.

Just that, now, I ask myself, what exactly do I want? I know what I want but what exactly. How exactly do I want it? What makes me happy? What will make me happy in the long run? Am I strong enough to take the now as it is and not worry about the future?

If I know my threshold, should I wait till I reach it? Or do what must be done? Should I be righteous this time? Should I take other people's advices?

I feel that something must be done. No, I know it. But my principles and emotions are clashing.

But I know, when all else fails, I must stand with the option that preserves my dignity and pride.

I wished someone guidance and strength when after all, it is I who need it.