Feeling Foreign

I shouldn't have felt like I belong to a different tribe of some sort because I know, we used to be in the same tribe just that, I like traveling to different tribes to try out new things.

Earlier was supposed to be just like any other day, when I go back to our tribe and feel at home again. But the funny thing was, it wasn't like before. I feel like I am a foreigner. Both of you were all of a sudden too distant. Argh. No, it wasn't really all of a sudden. I felt it long before this, it was just that I try to shun the idea that it is really the case.

The short moments when you tell me things were words that made me so uncomfortable and feel bad about myself. I am not even in the mood to defend myself anymore.

The end of any relationship is not when both parties continue to argue with each other. It is when one just decided to stop arguing and don't care at all.

For a while, I decided to stop arguing. To fight back. You never listen anyway. You continue making fun of me. You always tell me those stuff. After three years, you never quit on reminding me that. Thank you. You should have stopped long ago.

What's worse? I am not stable right now. I can't take too much jokes that affect my self-esteem. But what can I expect, you never noticed that at all. I have given too many hints already. But you never ask. You never even notice.

I could have bled myself dry and I bet, you'd notice that I have dirty nails rather than notice that I am drenched in blood, lifeless.