On the Verge of Crashing.

i have never felt my brain so awake for months until now. it is as if it is either chasing or racing with my thoughts. non-stop... always running... really fast... and just by thinking while sitting, staring blankly out the window of the speeding vehicle, i felt so tired. this exercise is more tiring than a week's worth of work.

i have to surrender to you, my Thought. for weeks now, i have tried my best to avoid you. with all the energy i can muster, i did try my best. i actually tire myself just so i don't have the energy and time to entertain you in my life. and for weeks now, i thought, i already won. i actually felt empowered. but you are a persistent Thought, after all. because alas! you fooled me. you were just there, around the bend, waiting for the perfect opportunity to catch me off-guard.

you are the most tiring thought of all thoughts. the scenarios wherein you presented yourself keep on running through my head. thanks to the caffeine i so happily consumed earlier, even if i want to shut down my brain, i just can't.

you smart Thought! you pulled the rug off my feet with the perfect timing! you made me think and think non-stop. if thoughts have meter, i bet,it read higher than what the bus meter showed right that moment. you, Thought, could have gotten home faster than me.

i know, i should not be thinking about it. and i don't want to. *sigh* i forgot. my brain has a brain of its own that i can't control.

and now, you made me so sad. you cruel Thought!