random thoughts for the week

I can't think of how to write my thoughts about the week that has passed in a way that would be coherent and sensible. And then I realize, "Levs, when have you been sensible when it comes to blogging?" haha. I mean, I don't really ponder on what to actually write (proof? I just got busted for writing something without thinking I'll get caught. gah.) and I don't really think of a way to write my entries such that it would be interesting or even readable. I blabber and blabber...and that's it. So I realize, why fuss about it, right? See, I am not sensible again. Oh well, I don't have to prove that I am actually a sensible and serious person with the use of my blog. People whom I got to talk to knows I am serious when I mean it. Oh by the way, that rarely happens. :P

Anyways, back to my random thoughts, there are few things in my mind for the moment since the recent week.

First up, the city lights viewed from Antipolo is really breath-taking. Even if I was really fostering a really bad mood that night, I can't help but to stop and look and of course, admire the lights. What really intensifies its beauty was that it has just rained and the sky was totally black, no stars. And those lights were like stars that had fallen from the sky. Really bright lights, twinkling. And since it had just rained that moment when we were in Padi's Point, I could actually smell the rain. And as always, it gave me that funny feeling everytime I smell it. I can't explain though but I really like the feeling. *sigh* I really love the rain. It is quite mababaw, but I don't really care. I happen to have a talent in appreciating small, nonsensical and shallow things. lol. I just realized, it has been quite a while since we have gone there in Antipolo. I actually miss that. Thanks to Kuya Lubert and Gil for going there with me even though it was really a very hasty decision. :P Argh. there. It is becoming too obvious (again!) that I am really one of the boys.

Next one, nothing beats a conversation over hot coffee (and chocolate cake!). Last Wednesday, I decided to ask my ex-roommate, Ate Rai, out. It has been months since we last saw each other. I got so busy and so did she. And I kinda miss her already (and she must miss me more than I miss her!haha. Ate Rai, aminin na!). And well, everytime I get so full of things and I need to have a person who knows me so much, I gotta see her. Plus, I think she has many things to say. hehe. Good thing, she was free and that she's near UP, so she agreed to meet me. So there. We took a cab to Gateway and when we can't find a good movie to watch nor an appetite to satisfy, I suggested to just have a coffee and talk. For one, I was not able to have a coffee in Antipolo the night before because unfortunately, Padi's coffee machine was not working at the moment so I had to settle with tea (which isn't bad after all). Anyways, we had our coffee in Starbuck's and chose the most hidden table.hehe. And well, I did the buying for the reason that I am younger than her. argh. I like mine hot ((like me! haha. kidding! or not. haha) so I had white chocolate mocha while Ate Rai want hers cold. And I just can't help but be tactless after observing the people and blabber out, "How come all of you like it cold when it is raining??" Anyway, it has been a great conversation. It was a dose of kalokohan and serious stuff (which only happened at the latter part). Hmm.. I actually like the feeling that someone listens to what I have to say. And Ate Rai and our other ex-roomie, Ate Bam make me feel that I have something to say other than jokes. Anyways, it would not have been that great without the coffee.haha. weird thought. But I think I had too much coffee.

Hmm, this is getting too long already. So I'm gonna be adding just another one na lang.

Last on the list, i just can't figure out why some people never fail to make me smile. Don't get me wrong, this is totally a good (great even!) thing. Though, I is really easy to make me smile and laugh. But it is different when the slightest action/inaction or word/lost for word comes into play. And in rare occasions, just a buzz or the sight of the name in my inbox or the round yellow smiley face before a name, which signifies the person's presence, in my ym list or a good night message from an unexpected person, makes me smile. What more beyond just the sight of those? They give me a great night! So great that while I was walking on my way to our building last Wednesday, I realized, I was smiling to myself! Had it not been dark, I might probably be looking like some complete idiot who was about to lose the littlest piece of sanity in her or I may be looking like someone who was trying so hard to look like I am a toothpaste commercial model (reminds me of Sam Milby smiling so hard in one toothpaste commercial..very unrealistic.hehe). But nonetheless, I was quite surprised at how simple things can make me smile (and make me look like a total looney!). It was a great walk actually. Cold, peaceful night. And happy thoughts are swirling in my head. Great night. :)

Anyways, there. My random thoughts. (Another random thought that came up, I like saying anyways and there. oh well, never mind). I limited this post by just writing about the good stuff because I think, it won't do me any good if I dwell on bad things. For one, it is not really about me. I just got tangled with it. So, no point of putting it here. What else? Argh! Acads is about to get me! I am dying because of the deadlines! Next week and the weeks after, hell weeks again!! I am actually worrying about my grades. I think I did not perform well this sem because I got so caught up with other things not acad-related. hahaha!

Oh well, this is too long already. Gotta end this but I don't know how. Hmm... I think this would do.

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