I was practically doing nothing, browsing through God knows what sites i laid my eyes on (don't worry. no porns.) and i just thought of visiting Bebang's public blog just because. And so there, I saw an announcement that our batch site has just been updated. I cannot remember the last time I visited that site. The last time I visited, there was just one person who regularly checks, Camach. hehe. Anyway, from our batch site, I saw links to my classmates' blogs. Most of their blogs can be found in friendster. come to think of it, two of them have the same layout. and i realized few things as I was reading their entries.

first, that our lives are full of drama. all sorts. and there are numerous ways of showing them. one would argue that blogging is one way. yes, but there are lots of ways under blogging category of releasing stress and frustrations and whatever. Some post lyrics of songs, others quotes and lists of anything they could think of. A lot of times, the entries were of love. not that it is a problem to me but I was intrigued, of course. the thought those people had once been a big part of my life and now they have very different set of friends and acquaintances still feels weird and new to me. i may sound funny and weird, but i really do feel uneasy about it. the same principle goes with the weirdness i felt when i found out that one of my brothers already has a girlfriend. I am not used to knowing that my brother have other important person in his life other than our family and his friends. having friends at any point of our life is normal, anyways. but girlfriend?! i don't think so. One girl can change his priorities and I am not used to that. anyways, that was what i felt knowing people who had been part of my life has new people in their lives and now, i am in the lowest of their priorities or worse, not even in the list. but that doesn't concern me the most really because i know for a fact my life also has changed a lot. a complete 180-degree turn.

But what concerns me more is how people actually change. to be more exact, how people changed to the person they actually didn't like or even hate 4 years ago. and they are the people i actually disagree with, now. not necessarily hate or dislike, but as i said, i disagree with especially those times they have to open their mouths (or for this matter, to type away their thoughts.lol).i mean, it is based on what they actually posted in their blogs. and every other line, i have to shake my head of disapproval (or worse, wrong grammars!XD) not that i am holding it against them but some of the things they said were against what i believe in. and thinking about it, i just can't be friends with them anymore pala. they would do the things that can piss me off and say stupid not-so-thought-of things. and it is sad that they were the people i actually thought i would be friends with for the rest of my life but now, never mind. i think i can't live another minute with people equipped with kikay kits and skulls full of twisted ideas. sorry if i sound so harsh but that is how i see it. but we are just even because they may feel the same way about how my brain works. so just fair. and anyhow, i am not forcing them nor suggesting them to change. they want it that way, so be it.

and maybe, how everything ends between all of us are just how it should end, no other way. we will see each other in the future and they may still hold onto those ludicrous ideas they have and i may find mine right or wrong but as one of my highschool classmates said, academics does not have anything to do with success (in her case, practicum. no comment on this one or i may laugh the whole night.lol). Being a Cum Laude or even Magna of the University of the Philippines does not make you any better. True enough.

But common sense has.


'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all, I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,you know, you know
That I love you
I have loved you all along