cheesy daw ako...

pfft. i never considered myself as a mushy, cheesy, sweet person. I am, i think, to few close friends. as i said with my previous post, i think, i have intimacy problems. i am not comfortable showing people i care about them. not even to my mom or my roomie. and at few times they see me do it, they tease me. and i get so uncomfortable.

last night, i was texting someone. right before i go to sleep, i just want to mang-asar. that person has no idea i know what happened to him. and so, with my good night text, i reminded him to do something regarding the thing he doesn't have an idea i have a knowledge of. i thought that was it.

when i woke up this morning, i saw msgs from him. like, who told me. and the next one was, it's just your imagination. and the next msgs were nonsensical. so when i already decided i want to reply, i replied a nonsense, "buti na lang naka-silent fone ko." and efter few msgs, the conversation was back to the thing i reminded him. he said, i should stop reminding him.

i thought, it was because i reminded him of what happened. i thought, he thinks i am being mean to him. so i said sorry. i said, i didn't mean it. but it was not his problem pala.

he said, "ang cheesy kasi."


argh. it was not my intention. but he got it that way. argh.

yes, i care. but when i sent that msg, it was just to irritate him because he have thought all along that i am not aware of what happened.pfft.and now i am cheesy.

argh.i am cheesy?!? what happened to the intimacy issue?

darn.