I think God has ran out of 3...

yeah. I think God has.

it did not come as a big shock for me but still it shocked me. For one, it is my first 5, EVER. I have never failed any subject since I started my education. Too bad. Oh well.

Fortunately, my Mom was not angry. Not a trace of disappointment in fact. Maybe because I have warned her from the very start. I guess, that's a good thing, that she has an idea about it. Instead of breaking it to her that her daughter got a 5 all of a sudden when all along, she thinks her bratty daughter is doing so well. Well, my other subjects are good. I got a 1 in fact. But a 1 can't compensate a 5. But then, Mommy is ok with that. She did not tell my Dad nor my siblings, not a single person. I think she does not want them to look at me a little less than they do now. They see me as the achiever of the family. And I feel, I failed not only myself but also my Mom. Basically, I'm doing almost everything for her. I may not want to admit it to her face, but I do. And when she decided she won't tell it to anyone, my gratitude is way up there. Relief actually. It made me feel a lot better. I love my mom so much and this made me love her more. My, thanks.

Along with the 5, goes my scholarship. But as I see it, God put it in such a perfect timing. I have gotten the scholarship when my brother got into college. So basically, last year, there were 3 of us in college. Big expenses as you can see. And now, my sister have just graduated and then there are only 2 of us in college, again, me, without scholarship.

I would like to think that God has a plan for me. This is definitely not the first challenge He has made for me. As early as my first year in college, I experienced many trials. Last year was a very good year for me. But good things never last.

Ba99.2 is not entirely bad actually. Yes, the grade is definitely good but come to think of it, I have earned something from it. Because of 99.2, I have a great friend whom I know will never leave me. And that would be Gil. Ba99.2 made me realize that indeed, since our app process, Gil has been my partner in crime. From being Vivian and Carlo, to being partners for OPS matrix, to Voice-out teammate, to PAG-ASA partner and now, BA99.2. Come to think of it, I'm his AVP. Another sem of partnership. And I think, he has decided to adopt me as his daughter. hehe. CE peeps, you know why is this so.;) Gil, I appreciate everything you've done for me. And thank you for never leaving me. And for your continuous support you are willing to extend. Thank you. I know I have told you how thankful I am but I think, it is not enough. Salamat Daddy!hehe.

To Kuya who was the first one to check me up, and bothered to call and made sure I'm ok (and that I'm not crying), thank you. You actually made me laugh about the chocolate. My answer was just a joke. But I wish it would happen.hehe.

To Alpha, who can't wait to know what's happening to me that she even made Pasaload, thank you as well.

To Abby for cheering me up. :)

To Aji and Jay for also asking if I'm ok.

And to Ivan, I can't wait to spend the summer with you. hehe. wala lang. I just felt I'd have fun with you this summer. I hope so. Sana you would go with me in the first place. haha! Let's go FOPC ba??

I think I need a chocolate. But I don't have one now. How I wish someone would give me. hehe.