*screaming*

Can I just say, I want to scream at the top of my lungs which I can't do right now because it is almost 3 in the morning. A while ago, my brother was still awake and I can't scream. Pardon me, but I just have to.

Waaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!

I want to hit myself with a frying pan and if I hit myself strong enough, maybe I'll be lucky to knock myself down to dreamland!

I was teary-eyed earlier tonight. Didn't imagine I would react to it that way. I just found myself teary-eyed.

Gosh. I hate this. Being sad, I can handle. But regrets plus being sad, I need someone to talk to! Leslie was so sleepy earlier that I think, she won't be able to type a decent reply. I need someone to talk to now, personally or over the phone. Actually, I could not think of anyone better than Leslie since she understands. But the girl just had her problem too, just a day after I had mine!

Great! Now we share almost the same problem?

I think I am on my way to the ward. Oh, help me.

But I can't go there. I have an online meeting later today. And another one perhaps in the afternoon or early evening. And probably one more during the late evening.

How can life take a 180-degree turn in a matter of 36 hours? Can I go back to the past? Just 36 hours to the past!